Where I'd rather be right now.

So I'm sitting here at very well know Seattle Coffee joint right now listening the sweet serenading of friends. Songs that either they made themselves, or musical theater songs. I'm enjoying greatly!! But deep in my soul I know that my heart is elsewhere! As much as I can step away from life here and there, I still have to come back to the real world, and I'm not so sure I want to be here right now. My thoughts are scattered, and it's slightly hard to ignore that things are going over my head, people aren't stopping to explain. That's fine if you want to have a conversation all to yourselves! But really why don't you do that when I'm not here. Maybe I'm just TMSing, but flip!!! I hate to be left out and when it's continual it hurts. I know it's not intentional in the pain, but it still hurts anyways. I'm here where I am because I want to enjoy, but if you're going to sit next to me and not include me in the conversation that is RUDE!!! I love you people greatly!! In fact you've changed my life more then I thought possible!!! AAAhhhhh!

Less of Me?

Less of me? What could that possibly mean? Well since Christmas I've been working incredibly hard to lose weight. And lose I have! When I first started someone even had the audacity to say, "Good, you're getting a bit fat!" At one point I thought I should do it to prove them wrong, but I knew I had to do it for me and no one else. In fact I've now lost 20 pounds worth. And I'm not giving up yet! Yes I've lost a fair amount, but my new goal is to reach the point where I regain my natural energy back. I'm not looking to be extra skinny or anything like that, but I want to be at a natural place where I won't have to worry about the problems that happen in my family. Diabetes, High Blood Pressure, and High Sodium, are among the number of issues that seem to have plagued my relatives. This is me taking a stand! I don't want to be caught in this at all! I want to take control of my life and make a difference.